Monday, December 7, 2009

Murphy's Law = Me

Murphy's Law = "Anything that can go wrong will go wrong."


I'm now scared to be in a group because everywhere I go something bad always happens...Either we get a low grade or something else happens. I do my part naman, its just I get bad luck when it comes to groupings. Usually I get the group with smart people but they usually ignore me for some reason. Maybe because I'm not like them? I don't know anymore...Sometimes when I get grouped, I sometimes get grouped with the somewhat smart but blames other people for their mistake group. It's really annoying on why things turn out like this...Maybe I should disappear for a while or never come back just to get rid of these problems...I feel contented with my life already, I don't see the reason for living for tomorrow since it will also go wrong in the end. Just like now, my group mates who scheduled a meeting today isn't looking for me since I'm still a threat to them. I already told them that the prof acts like this, grades like this, and expects like this. Did they listen? NO! They went on their own way and shoved me aside. They wanted to do it their way? Fine. But if they blame me for their mistakes, screw them. They didn't want to listen to me, you can go ride the last train to hell.

I feel so depressed today ever since the start of classes. Most of the time I stare blankly into space just thinking of what will happen later, tonight, and tomorrow. I could just die right now for all I care. No-one would want a jinx in their life anyway so why bother living when people reject my existence in the first place?

I'll probably OD on sleeping pills someday to escape this nightmare that people call their ideal world.

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