My heart is a big....void

I don't know what's wrong with me nowadays. I don't feel like seeing people or even interacting with them. Although I talk to a select number of people, I don't talk to anyone else. I don't really notice this but a person has been posting messages that would sometimes hit me. Though I don't think this is intentional, it pains me to see such things.

I would also seclude myself in my room, away from people. It would act as a defense mechanism due to me being afraid of trusting people. I don't like people using other people for their personal gain. It's that very reason why I don't trust people easily. It is also a way for me to think of other stuff other than the topic at hand.

I just feel that other people may have a grudge on me. Various reasons come to mind but I wouldn't bet it has to do with me being antisocial. Some are petty reasons which are usually thrown aside due to its poor significance. But others are just plain wrong. Who hates someone for being themselves? That's just saying "Hey, change your life because I don't like it." That's just wrong since what right does that person have to order you around?

Well, the other issues would follow this post.